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Friday, October 28th, 2005
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Monday, November 15th, 2004
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There is only death and manifestations of death.
Time flows backwards.
We flow into limitless potential.
Rule Zero states Nothing Lasts.
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ARISE, oh Cup-bearer, rise! and bring
To lips that are thirsting the bowl they praise,
For it seemed that love was an easy thing,
But my feet have fallen on difficult ways.
I have prayed the wind o'er my heart to fling
The fragrance of musk in her hair that sleeps
In the night of her hair-yet no fragrance stays
The tears of my heart's blood, my sad heart weeps.
-Hafiz
my heart has sung this tune to me for a long time now...
now ill finally be in a postion to fulfill it and see what comes from it.
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Monday, November 8th, 2004
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"Your destiny is that of a man, and your vows those of a god."
-Voltaire
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| Time: | 8:43 pm. |
| Mood: |  depressed. |
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update.
my innerworld is still in a state of renewal.
im working though some of my more unappealing emotions and thoughts.
probably making some progress.
Brie decided it would be best to just be friends.
working through that, as well.
its probably for the better.
maybe i could do something in photography.
ive gotten a lot of comments on the photos i take,
from a variety of people over the years.
if i worked on it, i might become really good...
good enough to get payed...probably.
i want to write more.
theres an idea running through my mind right now,
called...Coffee.
the jist is that i could have 8 to 10 chapters,
each of them taking place in a coffee shop,
where people discuss things such as politics,
religion, philosophy, lost loves, hopes, dreams, and so forth.
each chapter is a set of new people drinking coffee or tea,
and chatting.
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Friday, November 5th, 2004
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Take me to Room 101.
I am ready.
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Saturday, October 16th, 2004
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Thursday, October 14th, 2004
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The following are not real:
1. Independance
2. Individuality
3. Morality/Ethics
4. Any sort of 'paradox'
5. The physical world
6. Emotional states
Anything that changes,
is not real.
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Birds Without Wings
wishing that something would happen
a change in this place
'cos I'm tearing off the fancy wrapping
find an empty package
take for a while
your trumpet from your lip
loosen your hold loosen your grip
on your old ways
that have fallen out of step
in a changing time
hoist a new flag
hoist a new flag
angry sun burn down
judging us all
guilty of neglect and disrespect
and thinking small
and death by boredom
and death by greed
if we can't stop taking
more than we need
but across the fractured landscape
I see the same things
tired ideas
birds without wings
birds without wings
birds without wings
and these are just thoughts
of lack lustre times
I've no interest
in excuses you can find
like you've had a hard day
now you're too tired to care
now you're too tired to care
you've had a hard day
well across the fractured landscape
I see the same things
tired ideas broken values
many with the notion
that to share is to lose
a hollow people bound by a lack
of imagination and too much looking back
without the courage to give a new thing a chance
grounded by this ignorance
(and the cat comes)
We're just,
birds without wings
birds without wings
birds without wings
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Saturday, October 9th, 2004
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It would do good to just shut the fuck up.
And...so I shall.
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Sunday, October 3rd, 2004
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where are you mother.
where are you...
mother is gone.
mother is lost.
come back mommy.
wake up, look at my face.
black and blue,
like the fading suns dance.
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Its been so long,
Sweet Mary.
Sweet Mary.
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Wednesday, September 22nd, 2004
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| Time: | 8:44 pm. |
| Mood: |  aggravated. |
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Grr...
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Eventually...
Everything beautiful becomes ugly.
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Friday, September 17th, 2004
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The Christian Four Noble Truths
1. You are born in sin.
2. You're born in sin because Eve ate that damned apple.
3. You can be saved.
4. In order to be saved, accept Christ as your Lord and Savior.
Valley Girl Four Noble Truths
1. Like sometimes I feel like shit.
2. I totally feel like shit 'cause my dad took away my credit card.
3. I am like for sure that I dont have to feel like shit.
4. I'll just have my rich boyfriend buy me what I want.
A Trippers Four Noble Truths
1. Setting...Check.
2. Set...Check.
3. Psychedelic...Check.
4. Whoa.
Zen Buddhist's Four Noble Truths
And Finally...My Four Noble Truths...
1. I feel very tired.
2. I feel tired because I've stayed up so damn late.
3. I dont have to feel tired.
4. I'm off to bed. Night folks!
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| Subject: | Four Noble Truths Modernized. |
| Time: | 3:47 am. |
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Original Four Noble Truths (Buddhism)
1. Life is suffering.
2. The cause of suffering is desire.
3. There is a way out of suffering.
4. That way is the 8 Fold Path.
Modernized
1. Life sucks.
2. Life sucks cause we want a lot of shit.
3. Life doesn't have to suck.
4. Life will stop sucking when we dont want so much shit!
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Monday, September 13th, 2004
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Vanity, vanity, all is vanity.
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Wednesday, September 8th, 2004
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I want anyone and EVERYONE who reads this to post in here something they would like to do with me someday.
Then post this in your journal to find out what people want to do with you.
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[Ænema]
Some say the end is near.
Some say we'll see armageddon soon.
I certainly hope we will.
I sure could use a vacation from this
bull-shit three ring cirrrrcus siiiideshow of
Freaks here in this, hopeless fucking, hole we call LA.
The only way to fix it is to flush it all away.
Any fucking time.
Any fucking day.
Learn to swim, I'll see you down in Arizona bay.
Fret for your figure and
Fret for your latte and
Fret for your lawsuit and
Fret for your hairpiece and
Fret for your prozac and
Fret for your pilot and
Fret for your contract and
Fret for your car.
It's a bull-shit three ring cirrrrrcuus siiideshow of
freaks here in this hopeless fucking hole we call LA.
The only way to fix it is to flush it all away.
Any fucking time.
Any fucking day.
Learn to swim, I'll see you down in Arizona bay.
Some say a comet will fall from the sky.
Followed by meteor showers and tidal waves.
Followed by faultlines that cannot sit still.
Followed by millions of dumbfounded dipshits.
Some say the end is near.
Some say we'll see armageddon soon.
I certainly hope we will
I sure could use a vacation from this
stupid shit, silly shit, stupid shit...
One great big festering neon distraction,
I've a suggestion to keep you all occupied.
(Learn to swim. 3x)
Mom's gonna fix it all soon.
Mom's comin' round to put it back the way it ought to beeeeeeeee.
(Learn to swim. 8x){continues in background}
Fuck L Ron Hubbard and Fuck all his clones.
Fuck all these gun-toting Hip gangster wannabes.
(Learn to swim. 8x){continues in background}
Fuck retro anything. Fuck your tattoos.
Fuck all you junkies and Fuck your short memory.
(Learn to swim. 8x){continues in background}
Fuck smiley glad-hands with hidden agendas.
Fuck these dysfunctional, insecure actresses.
(Learn to swim. 8x)
Cuz I'm praying for rain
and I'm praying for tidal waves
I wanna see the ground give way.
I wanna watch it all go down.
Mom please flush it all away.
I wanna see it go right in and down.
I wanna watch it go right in.
Watch you flush it all awaaaaaaaaay.
Time to bring it down again.
Don't just call me pessimist.
Try and read between the lines.
I can't imagine why you wouldn't
Welcome any change, my friend.
I wanna see it come down.
(Suck it down. 2x)
Flush it down.
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Thursday, September 2nd, 2004
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Wednesday, September 1st, 2004
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Awareness is utterly still.
It doesnt move,
it never comes or goes.
Only objects in awareness come and go.
Awareness remains still.
I was deeply humbled
as the truck drove down the street,
and I saw Maya unfolding her beautiful petals,
at each and every step of the way.
I dont know why Maya is.
Thus, I am deeply humbled.
I will remain still,
and watch Maya's sweet tune being played before me.
Liberation is at hand.
Om peace peace peace.
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Friday, August 27th, 2004
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Thursday, August 26th, 2004
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Last night was Awesome.
<3 Pumpkin
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Tuesday, August 24th, 2004
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silence and stillness,
transcends.
stay silent,
stay still.
Transcend.
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her beautiful red hair,
so irish.
her beautiful smile,
so irish.
like the sun about to burst
from behind the clouds of a storm,
her radiance shines
behind her saddened face.
-hugs-
Feel better sweetie.
Love,
Dan
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Friday, August 20th, 2004
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Saturday, August 14th, 2004
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maybe a few of you will understand what im about to say, i dont really know.
maybe ill strike a cord with someone, maybe i already have.
its a lot of maybes, and dont knows.
I am Tired.
I am Very Tired.
I dont know how long I've been on Earth.
If there is such a thing as reincarnation,
maybe for eternity I've sat here in this chair.
Waiting for something to happen.
Waiting for some kind of Release.
I want to go Home.
There is Something out there,
thats given life to this universe.
Id really like to find that,
and wrap myself in it.
fully letting go.
everyday i peer out of my eyes and obseve this world
and its millions of denizens.
its like im stuck inside somekind of loop.
all i see are endless cycles.
im stuck inside this body,
and inside this mind.
it takes me to many different places.
somedays i visit a hell.
hell, this is a paranoid state.
fear, and being afriad reign here.
its king and queen are anger and aggression.
i want to scream, i want to cry.
i want to rip my flesh and muscles off of my bones.
i want someone to hold me, tell me they care
and...mean it.
somedays it takes me to heaven.
here im calm. everything flows seemlessly together.
i get off the bus, i work, i feel good.
i see a childs smile, and it warms my heart.
i think about how much life means to me.
how amazing it is and how at awe i am at the things i see.
i listen to music and it gives me chills.
i help a homeless man, or a mother and her child.
i sing to be free, and i am free.
still other days i am just on earth.
here everything is in between heaven and hell.
its a regular day, no big deal.
i can honestly say that i have tasted heaven and hell.
but this isnt enough for me. its not enough.
there something within me calling out to me.
most of the time i ignore this calling,
and i stifle it by throwing something on top of it.
be it, reading, tv, internet, sleep, eating, movies,
or whatever form of escapes humankind has created.
other times ill listen to it but its voice is so soft,
i have to really listen. maybe this is why ive gotten into meditation,
sought after yoga, read book after book of buddhism, hinduism and taoism.
maybe these things will help me hear it.
ive seen a change in myself, a very big one.
there is still so much to do, so much work to be done.
sometimes ill get frustrated and scream to myself,
move faster! speak louder! please...
because i loose faith. its so easy to loose faith.
i see people get so involved in this world,
and it amuses me to some degree.
because i have this personality that loathes these things.
not loathe. but see its transient and futile nature. but this doesnt mean i dont find pleasure in these worldy desires. i do.
i feel so old.
like ive been walking
and traveling on earth for eons.
i see all of these young souls,
thrusting themselves against the pain and pleasure of life.
in and out they go, in and out is the rhythm they keep.
they dip their toe in this stream, and then move on to the next.
mindlessly prancing about, waving their arms in the air, so carefree,
so innocent. its so beautiful. its incredibly beautiful to watch.
sometimes its incredibly annoying. a simple shake, and would they wake up from their pipe dream?
I am Tired.
I want to go Home.
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Wednesday, August 11th, 2004
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(note: im not complete in this idea/concept, just yet.)
there are levels to everything.
there are dark levels and lighter levels.
subtle levels and denser levels.
so and and so forth.
like a spectrum.
for example:
light is a subtle energy level,
where as matter is a denser energy level.
levels.
now there is an unconditioned level.
this uncondioned level is what gives birth
to all the other levels.
if you think of an artist,
the artist would need a blank piece of paper or canvass,
before putting his art into motion.
he needs emptyness first.
that emptyness is the unconditioned state.
the unconditioned state is pure, it is seemless, it is eternal.
all things finite, all things conditioned, spring forth from this
eternal, unconditioned state.
awareness is a manifestation of this unconditioned state.
when i say awareness i do not mean, various thought processes,
manufanctured in the mind,
because awareness can be detached from those levels.
awareness is a blank canvass, from which our senses, and mind paint objects onto, but awareness is always pure and always unattached from what is being painted unto it. exactly like a mirror. the actual images projected unto the mirror, are not actually on the mirror. they are just relfections.
the spectrum would go something like this.
The True Self, that liberated spirit,
the one spoken of after enlightenment,
the one living in constant and pure nirvana,
that is pure awareness, not attached to anything.
a level up the mind and body wraps itself around awareness.
we get lost in the mind and body,
not fully realizing that we are actually pure awareness.
we think, yes i am this body, yes i am this mind.
but no we are not. we are actually pure awareness.
we get lost in the manifestations of awareness,
never fully grasping that awareness is the oringal state of all things.
awareness is the true house of bliss, of nirvana,
and all other things are mere reflections of it.
-will finish later...-
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Tuesday, August 10th, 2004
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I am distilling my ego from awareness.
i say to myself,
i am not this mind,
i am not this body.
somethings happening.
of course.
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Next summer I'm thinking of doing a big cross country trip (Canada included).
If I have a car by then, I'll go by car.
If, however, I havent a car,
I'll find some other mode of transportation.
my basic plan is this:
since im in colorado ill head out to the west coast,
lower California and move my way up into British Columbia.
then move in and out of Canada and the upper parts of the US.
working myself all the way to the east coast.
from there ill move down ward into florida;
start to swing back around
and head in the general direction of Colorado.
id really like to meet as many LJ and Online friends as i could,
SOOOO... email me (danr224@aol.com),
or leave a comment if you think youd be interested in seeing me
or having me drop by for a day or two in your city.
i dont know what the hell will happen,
i might never come back to colorado for all i know.
im pretty excited to see what will unfold!
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Life is a Dream...
So lets get Lucid
and do some Cool Shit!
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I'm going out of town this weekend.
When I come back sunday,
will atleast one of you have commented
on one of my recent or past posts?
lol
Take Care,
-Dan
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If we stand here together
And we see the world as one
We may think there's no future
But it's the same for everyone
It's like the world has lost its head
And it's like all the prophets said
But will we arise to a new world
If we stand here together
We can laugh at what we've done
All out time has been wasted
And there's nowhere left to run
There may be trouble up ahead
Will we be sleeping in out beds
Or will we arise to a new world
Look for signs and portents
I'm looking for a reason to believe
Will we arise in our time
At the dawn of another meaning
Will we awake at the break of a great hosannah
Well if there's nothing left to do
Just hold your breath and hope it's true
That we'll arise
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You look like a perfect fit
For a girl in need of a tourniquet
But can you - save me
Come on and - save me
If you could - save me
From the ranks of the freaks
Who suspect they could never love anyone
'Cause I can tell
You know what it's like
The long farewell
Of the hunger strike
But can you save me
Come on and save me
If you could save me
From the ranks of the freaks
Who suspect they could never love anyone
You struck me down like radium
Like Peter Pan or Superman
You will come to save me
C'mon and save me
If you could save me
From the ranks of the freaks
Who suspect they could never love anyone
'Cept the freaks
Who suspect they could never love anyone
But the freaks
Who suspect they could never love anyone
C'mon and save me
Why don't you save me
If you could save me
From the ranks of the freaks
Who suspect they could never love anyone
Except the freaks
Who suspect they could never love anyone
Except the freaks who could never love anyone
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Thursday, August 5th, 2004
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This year's love had better last,
heaven knows it's high time,
I've been waiting on my own too long.
And when you hold me like you do
it feels so right
oh now
I start to forget how my heart gets torn
when the hurt gets thrown
feeling like you can't go on
Turning circles and time again
cut like a knife
oh now
if you love me gotta know for sure
'cause it takes something more this time
than sweet sweet lies
oh now
before I open up my arms and fall
losing all control
every dream inside my soul
when you kiss me on that midnight street
sweep me off my feet
singing ain't this life so sweet
This year's love it better last
This year's love it better last
'Cause who's to worry if our hearts get torn
when that hurt get thrown
don't you know this life goes on
won't you kiss me on that midnight street
sweep me off my feet
singing ain't this life so sweet
This year's love it better last
This year's love it better last
This year's love it better last
This year's love it better last
This year's love it better last
This year's love it better last
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I can't help but feel that Television
has more destructive ability than the Atomic Bomb.
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greater than the angels?
we sit in the middle,
where everything meets.
those winged creatues sit to the left
and the horned to the right.
we in the middle,
as is where the heart is.
the center.
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Wednesday, July 28th, 2004
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on Pee Wees Playhouse there was a character,
who was claymation,
her name was Penny.
anyone remember her?
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Saturday, July 24th, 2004
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Thank you Ari, Faye, Jackie, Marcus, Melissa (sol_rei), Sophia...
-Big Hugs-
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"In all things it is the Beginning and End that are interesting. The love of men and women - is it only when they meet face to face? To feel sorrow at an unaccomplished meeting, to grieve over empty vows, to spend the long night sleepless and alone, to yearn for distant skies, in a neglected house to think fondly of the past - this is what love is."
-Yoshida Kenko "Essays in Idleness"
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The dawn in all its majesty
Is stealing me away
The dawn in all its honesty
Is turning me to clay
And through the bears of iron rain
Way beyond and back again
I hear the voice of Eden cry
Lift me up I'm walking on high
It's real love
Real love
This world in all its clarity
Is glorious, is fake
This world in all its vanity
Is more than I can take
And down the road the iron wheels
Chain my heart to how it feels
I hear the voice of Eden cry
Lift me up I'm walking on high
It's real love
Real love
Real love
Real love
And something in the heart of me
Is telling me it's time
To meet the eye of destiny
And leave it all behind
And through my bones an iron rage
Paints my soul upon the page
I hear the voice of Eden cry
Lift me up to walk on high
Make me wanna lay down and die
It's real love
Real love
Real love
Real love
The dawn in all its majesty
Is stealing me away
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sometimes you just feel like fucking shit.
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Square One...
my old familiar friend!
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Saturday, July 17th, 2004
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optimistic.